I’ve always struggled with the feeling that my life has turned into a routine. As much as I tried to avoid this feeling, I couldn’t help it. Every day turned out to be exactly the same as the one before, to the point were I would forget what day it was. I was trapped within my own limits. This is how my life went: school, homework, worry about school, hang with friends, watch series and sleep. Life passed me by while I was trapped in my own worries.
I decided to look at my life from another perspective, look at the big picture. It’s funny how we think of our lives are the most important things in the world, when after all we’re just another drop in the ocean. I was so trapped in my own life that I never looked at what was happening outside.
At about 2:00 pm, my dad and I got out of the office, and rode a Vespa around the city. While riding the Vespa, I paid close attention to all of the people on the streets, I tried to imagine what they might be thinking about, or what their life might be like. This made me feel so much more insignificant, I realized I wasn’t only one in 7 billion people, but I was one in 7 billion people, each one with their own hopes and dreams, worries and struggles. If I ever thought I was the center of the universe, then I was definitely wrong. That’s when a new fear started tormenting my mind……
THE FEAR OF BEING FORGOTTEN
We’ve all sometime thought about how we want to be remembered when we die. So I thought, am I even going to be remember? There are so many people with so many different ideas and thoughts, is it even possible to leave your mark? Suddenly I felt a feeling of guilt and distress at the same time. I felt guilty of not living my life to it’s fullest potential, while I felt anxious because I knew this could change, I just didn’t know where to start.